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Entries from June 2007

Community Worship Poem

June 30, 2007 · Leave a Comment

In a worship time last Monday, we were looking at the way God is our loving Father. Not the patriarchal, judgmental stereotype many have (and squirm) about God. Through song, image, and scripture, we looked at this aspect of God. Then we wrote a poem together in response. Each person considered their personal response, then we put them into one piece. So, we trust that the Spirit smooths it all together, making many thoughts into something beautiful. Perhaps you will find it meaningful for you as well…

Restore in us Father
the childlike heart of trust.

You invite us to explore life with you leading the way-
Oh to be caught in your arms, held in your hands, secure in your grasp.
Hold me Father, you are the only One.

When I feel like I’m walking alone
unsure of which way to go,
then I feel your hand in mine
and I know.

May I trust in your loving heart for me as your child
Not as an unreasonable tyrant.
You deal with me tenderly,
reminding me of your love
when I point out my faults.

God knows not one color
but in His ultimate glory
he embraces them all!

It should be so simple -
it is so simple

Categories: community

Welcome, Bahati!

June 22, 2007 · 1 Comment

Luc was scheduled to post this week, but he’s been a little busy.

Bahati

On Wednesday morning, Luc and Petunia celebrated the arrival of their beautiful baby daughter, Bahati. Congratulations to Luc, Petunia, and big sister Mosky!  Bahati and Petunia will come home on Saturday, and we’re all excited to have a new baby around Pangani!

Categories: Luc

Mr. Nice Guy

June 16, 2007 · Leave a Comment

This past week our community welcomed a couple that led us through a time looking at the deep issues of our hearts. It was based on writings by John Eldredge if you’re familiar with him.

One of the things we talked about is the “nice” syndrome that seems to permeate our Christian culture. It seems that at many times the Christian life is all about “niceness.” Nice people go to church. Spiritual people are always nice. And the true quality of your life is determined by how nice you are. The nicer the better.

Well, I spent the first 20 years of my life trying to live up to this ideal. And I was pretty good at it. I was never known as a rebellious child at home. At school, I was well liked and got good grades. At church, I memorized lots of Bible verses and got Gold Stars for attendance. Oh, I seemed to be admired by many and I was walking the straight and narrow. I was going to be a Nice Christian for Jesus. I was well on my way to achieving the complete lifestyle of “niceness.” If I would have stayed on this track, by now I would have a “nice” job that I wouldn’t really care for, have a “nice” wife and both of us would raise our “nice” kids in a posh suburb where it’s always quiet, people drive the actual speed limit, and the grass is always cut to the perfect length.

But something in me changed when I had the opportunity to travel to the Middle East. I was there on a short-term missions team and I got a glimpse of what it means to live a “Radical” life for Jesus. Then two years later I was invited to lead a team back to the Middle East. And it was different than what I’ve ever experienced before. It was like a covert, special ops mission. And it felt like our team might have entered a James Bond movie. (Of course our weapons were slightly different.) We traveled across borders carrying multiple passports so that our previous locations wouldn’t be detected. We traveled into terrorist-controlled territories; spent time in a bomb shelter until the bombs subsided. In one country, we were followed by police from city to city. Two government spies followed our every move leaving one of our hotel rooms and later they stopped us to interrogate us.

Whoa! How cool is that! And in taking my team through all of this we came away with our mission accomplished. This is the way to live! More than any other time in my life, I felt this is what I’m made for. So long Mr. Nice Guy. A Radical life for Jesus is way more appealing.

Now I’m in South Africa on an adventure of a different kind. NieuCommunities provides me the freedom to explore and discover. I’m able to test and see what church can look like without all the buildings, traditions, formulas, and rules that can get in the way of understanding the essence of the Church. I get to discover the message of Jesus in cultures vastly different than my own. It’s like a spiritual Lewis and Clark journey up the Missouri River.

Even though I still fight the tendency to retreat back to Mr. Nice Guy, I’m so glad I left that life and started a different journey. The Real Life I’m experiencing now is so much better than the one of my previous ambitions that resembled living in Mr. Rogers’ neighborhood.

Categories: Doug · missional

Global Awareness Experience

June 7, 2007 · 1 Comment

This past Sunday night, we invited 50-some people to Pangani for what we called a “Global Awareness Experience.” This event allowed attenders to have a taste (bad pun) of the ways people live and eat worldwide. Our invitations were purposefully vague–not knowing what to expect helped everyone think more about what was happening as the night played out. As people arrived, they were asked to draw a number that would determine where they sat for the meal. Each table represented a different economic class, and the number of people seated at each table represented the approximate percentage of people who live at that level worldwide.

Table One

Table One: Three people sat here and enjoyed a three-course meal, served by a waiter. They enjoyed salad, steak, roast potatoes, and green beans, followed by chocolate mousse for dessert. Cloth napkins, a color-coordinated tablecloth, nice dishes, and candlelight completed the experience. They sat apart from the other tables and enjoyed their delicious gourmet meal as all the other tables looked on. Although some wanted to share their food with others who had less, they were told by their waiter: “This isn’t that kind of restaurant.”
Table Two

Table Two: This table of ten enjoyed a family-style spaghetti dinner, with french bread and salad, and bottles of soda to share. They ate from regular plates with plain flatware and used paper napkins, and there was far more than enough food to go around. This table was the one most able to share with other groups–and they did.

Table Three

Table Three: No tablecloth and no fancy dishes here…our table had a meal of rice & beans, which we ate from plastic plates. The sixteen of us had clean water to drink from our plastic cups and we each had our own bowl or plate, plus a fork.

Table Four

Table Four: Here is where the term “table” becomes negotiable. This group of 14 ate rice from a common bowl, and had dirty water to drink from a few cups (there weren’t enough for everyone to have their own). Some at this table became a little bitter, and attempted to steal food from Table One. (They were reprimanded by the waiter.)

Table Five

Table Five: Yet again, not exactly a table. Six people gathered around this wastebasket fire and scavenged food from a trash can. Later in the evening, they began to beg food from the other tables. They actually ended up eating better than our table did, enjoying scraps of steak and potatoes leftover from Table One (these they dug out of the trash) and whole plates of spaghetti that were shared by Table Two.

Going into the evening, I was nervous about how things would play out. When I invite people to an event, I feel responsible for how things go for them–I want to make sure they have a positive experience. I’d invited several women from Soshanguve, and I let them know that this wasn’t going to be a usual meal. The vagueness of the invitation made me wonder–and worry a bit–about how they would react. Admittedly, I was a little nervous that I would end up at Table Five–but I was more nervous that my guests would land there and have a bad experience.

My fellow apprentice Sarah and I picked up Emily and Winnie and brought them to Pangani, and when we arrived, everyone but Winnie drew Table Three. Winnie drew Table Five. I worried about her having to scavenge her meal from a trash can, but as it turned out, she ate better than I did and had a great time hanging out with the “homeless” people in her group!

The evening turned a lot of expectations upside down for most of us. Sitting at Table Three meant that I had a fairly filling, if plain meal. It meant that I had some food left to share with those who had less. However, Table Five didn’t want our extra rice–they preferred leftover spaghetti from Table Two. I’m used to having something to offer to those less fortunate than myself, and it was strange to feel as if what I had wasn’t good enough to be shared.

At the end of the meal (which wasn’t really much of a meal for some), we gathered in two groups to discuss the evening and our reactions to it. The goal of the event was to get all of us to think more deeply about how things actually are in the world, where we fit within that bigger picture, and to experience a bit of what life is like in different economic classes. Ultimately, we all were asked to consider what we can and should do with the awareness we gained from the experience.

As we talked in smaller groups at the conclusion of the night, I was again struck by the overwhelming generosity of my friends from Soshanguve. Their economic level is probably closest to the Table Three group. Emily and I talked a lot about how she wishes their family had more–not so they could live like Table Two or Table One, but so that they could better help others who have less. She talked about how hard it is to not be able to help in the ways she would like. And we talked about how important it is to help in the ways we can.

What are the ways you can share what you have with others around you?

Categories: Barbara · poverty

The Image of God

June 3, 2007 · Leave a Comment

If your life was a puzzle, what would the picture look like? What does the image of God look like? How can we be the image of God while at the same time bear so much sin? These are just a few of the questions that have been swirling around in my mind the past couple of weeks. It all started while reading a book called Celebration of Discipline. A few weeks back we studied the spiritual discipline of confession. I quickly became aware of a deep fear within me. The thought of confessing my sins to people made me freeze in place. I read about how the author Richard Foster had practiced confession by keeping a journal. He started with his childhood and wrote down everything that he needed forgiveness for, that he needed to give forgiveness for, or that he needed healing from. After writing about his childhood he moved on to adolescence and adulthood.

That Thursday we had an evening conversation about salvation and what our role was in other people’s salvation. I immediately went back to the thought of us being the image of God–realizing that the most important thing we could be to anyone is a reflection of God’s image. This thought brought me to tears. How can I be a reflection of his image if I am still all about myself? I won’t befriend some people for fear of them rejecting me. I won’t confess my sins to my community for fear of being judged. When my life is all about me and what I want, then something is wrong.

This brought me to the question, how do we get to the point where we are reflecting God’s image and not ours? That Thursday I took out a notebook and like Richard Foster began to write down everything that I needed forgiveness for, that I needed to give forgiveness for, or that I needed healing from. I was shocked by the many things that got written on my paper. I realized the many things that for years have been buried deep within me, things that in a sense have been prohibiting me from living my life to the fullest in Christ.

When will I be able to be a true reflection of my Lord and Savior? When will I put myself aside so that everyone can see him? When will I stop letting the past control my present and future? I don’t have answers to these questions, but I know that I’m on the right track. My heart is being healed, and my life is being restored.

This passage has spoken to my heart many times these past few weeks.

Jeremiah 17:9-10, 14 (The Message)
“The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful,
   a puzzle that no one can figure out.
But I, God, search the heart
   and examine the mind.
I get to the heart of the human.
   I get to the root of things.
I treat them as they really are,
   not as they pretend to be.

God, pick up the pieces.
   Put me back together again.
   You are my praise!”

Last week in our worship time, Daleen said something that I found awesome. She said that even with all my good, bad and ugly, Jesus still shines brightly through me. I praise God that we don’t have to be perfect, and we don’t have to have it all together in order to be a light.

Categories: Carissa